What makes you think I see it as a burden? I chose this way of life as an adult.
For many people, at some point it isn't enough to have religion simply be a form of belief. It becomes an obsession. Studied, argued over, etc.- it is the motivating factor for life itself. That to me seems like a burden. Does it matter that you've asked the board whether or not you've taken your religion to the extreme of "thumping"? If the consensus was "yes", would you have considered cutting it back a bit? Considering the answer is a "no", will you be tempted to try harder, or are you relieved to know you aren't coming off as such?
Ever-present doubt? I think you're projecting what you what you want me to think.
A believer with no doubt might be more blind than the non-believer.
Regardless of what I think though, you have very right to do as you see fit with your life. You'd asked a question and I'm just putting some feedback out there.