OK, so I slipped up about four weeks ago - not that I couldn't control myself (the cravings were pretty much gone for months before then). You see, my eyes have been feeling very over-strained and light-sensitive lately, even more-so than usual, and I just wanted to experiment to see if adding meat back to my diet would help, just in case it was something nutritional. After ~9 months of zero animal foods, I had 2-3 days of total meat depravity, yet again proving to myself that 100% vegan is the way to go. It all started with a bit of fish, but then it opened up the floodgates to a huge meat-feast - once I started I just couldn't stop until I downed like five kilos of beef, pork, and chicken. I just have no portion control whatsoever when it comes to meat! What's weird is that I felt weird hormonal / psycho-chemical changes, like it was cocaine or something - I was very irritated, and when something pissed me off (as often is the case when you're forum liber-trolling or C++ programming all day) I almost punched through every wall in the house! And the worst part is, almost a month later, I'm still craving more meat, like I did when I first went vegan - I hope the cravings don't take as long to go away the second time around. So I'm never buying meat again, ever! I don't even want to be within one mile of anything meaty! Man, it's even harder going through the withdrawal symptoms the second time around... If I'm somewhere where I smell meat grilling (and during the withdrawal process your sense of smell really increases), I feel like I'd sell my soul for a piece of meat...
In other news, I'm trying to cut out the grains from my diet, or at least all grains except buckwheat (gluten free), but especially bread. I think the meat cravings are stronger on days when I don't eat as much beans, so I'm thinking of upping my diet to just beans and vegetables (mostly leafy ones, at least 20% calories from protein), and adding protein supplements as well.