A LOT of stuff has gone down since the last update. I'm still taking it in, and organizing it in my own mind before presenting it here.
One thing is that the dam broke. We had this thing going on where we would play a game. We called it "shomer chicken" and the context for the name isn't as important as what it was. We would tease one another by getting as close as possible without touching, and pantomime what we would like to do to the other, or describe it in detail. For hours, we would tease each other like this. Never quite touching, but getting close, tugging on clothes, breathing on, etc. The dam broke when we were in Times Square. At some point, she asked for a kiss. It cascaded from there. She made me scrambled eggs the next morning. What followed was a few weeks of being discreet in public, but sneaking into locked rooms when we could. Playing the part of two couples prematurely.
Then I got sick.
I spent two weeks in the hospital, and now, thank G-d, I am fine, and don't need surgery, but my girl was upset by all the events surrounding it. None of my friends knew initially, and I couldn't get a hold of anybody because I was out of the house without a cell phone or wallet. When she found out, she visited me only once. When she did, the entire time we spoke, I was consoling her, telling her it would be all right, and that things would work out.
I got out, and we agreed to speak this Sunday. I am pretty sure she wants to dump me, but not before taking me to a hotel nearby to say goodbye. What makes this more complicated is that in the hospital, I resigned myself to a breakup, and at the same time, found a very hot nympho in the same floor who does modeling on the side. She isn't Jewish, so there isn't a shot at anything permanent, but, she fulfills a vacuum of need.
Still, with a working relationship, its technically emotionally cheating, even if I don't do anything.