You realize how culty you sound right? And how completely anti-individualist that statement is, how can I possibly "make myself a victim"?
Could you explain to me what about that statement sounds "culty"?
As far as "making myself a victim", yes you are correct. I could have chosen a more exact phrase. The point though is that I continued to put myself in situations where my mom could
abuse be a dick to me (by visiting her), and so I decided to stop contacting her. Certainly, it isn't your fault if an asshole is an asshole all the time, but that doesn't mean it isn't stupid to keep putting yourself into the situation.
Where you raped as a kid or something?
No, but she hit me. And verbally abused me as well. So first off, I don't really want to associate with people who hit children 1/4 their size. That's sick.
But even now, I get zero value from our relationship. She thinks I am a nutcase for having these crazy "anarchy" ideas, which is a problem since liberty is one of the most important things in my life. Anytime I bring up anything remotely political she shuts me down instantly. One time, she started screaming at me because I was lending my sister "The Virtue of Selfshness" (BTW I am not a Randian anymore). She also told me that I deserved to be in prison for selling pot. Certainly I have relationships with people who are not anarchists, but I have removed pretty much everyone who is virulently statist (or completely closed-minded to liberty) from my life.
There is no way I would associate with someone like this who was not a family member...and since I don't view simply being a family member as being valuable in and of itself, I chose to dissociate myself from her.
At first I felt guilty about it...but then I realized that if she had any redeeming qualities (an engaging personality, an open mind, treated me halfway decently, etc) then this wouldn't be a problem. If she doesn't, then why waste any time with her? I have too many wonderful people in my life that deserve my attention to waste any on someone like her.
Is rape the only reason you would choose to dissociate yourself from someone?