I believe that higher power is actually us, and therefore, we are our own gods. To which we pray, save us from alcohol.
Perhaps I'm a failed god, then. Insomnia was an issue but I didn't die. Also trying to quit soda and junk food because weight gain is a big part of the problem. It has been over a week without any of that and weight is going down.
I thought you said up there that it gives you negative thoughts.
Drinking is full while doing it. Being hung over isn't fun. Knowing that you are getting fat, hurting your health, were rude to people the previous day and so on isn't fun.